Ronda Rousey suffered her first loss as a mixed martial artist in November, and losing her UFC title was a tough thing to swallow.
"Rowdy" will make her second appearance on the 'The Ellen Degeneres Show' on Tuesday, this time as a former champion, and revealed she still doesn’t remember most of the fight.
"I got clipped in the first exchange so I was knocked out on my feet like the first time I got hit," Rousey said. "It’s hard to really know what’s going on. In that first hit I cut up my whole mouth and I knocked my teeth loose. Guys fight for five five-minute rounds, they are teeing off each other faces the whole time and nothing like that happens. It’s just destiny, it had to go down that way.
"It was weird. I had no perception of… I felt like almost I couldn’t see," she continued. "Like, I could see but I couldn’t tell how far my hand was from my face or how far was she from me. When you sit and you’re not moving, you’re still aware of where your body is. That’s like a part of your brain telling you where you are in space. It was like that kind of turned off. I was swinging blindly. I knew she was out there, but, like, I really don’t remember most of it."
Rousey recovered mentally from the loss, and hopes Holm beats Miesha Tate on March 5 so she can be the one to hand Holm her first loss in MMA later this year. However, her initial thoughts after the fight weren’t that positive.
"Honestly, my thought, I was like, in the medical room and I was like down in the corner, I was in the corner and I was like ‘what am I any more if I’m not this?’", Rousey said. "I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself and that exact second I’m like ‘I’m nothing, what do I do anymore and no one gives a sh*t about me anymore without this.’"
According to the former champion, that’s when her boyfriend Travis Browne helped her the most.
"And to be honest I looked up and I saw my man Travis was standing up there and I looked up at him and I was like, I need to have his babies," she said. "I need to stay alive. Really that was it.’ I haven’t told anybody that. I only told him."